Thursday, July 19, 2012
Shadows are clapping to thunders rapping
While phantoms are screaming to seedlings dreaming..
Sun bells ring as the spirits sing
Climbing to the sun, this life has just begun..
Tambourine sounds of laughter fill the void well after
The scars are faded into thoughts once jaded..
Rising is this life inside
Magic rising as the circles wide..
It is true that
Love beckons while the soul never reckons
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
It’s the tough times that make me grateful for everything I have. This past week I have been thankful just to be able to sweep my porch. The simple act of sweeping has been a morning meditation and an act of cleansing to get myself ready for the day.
Last week I was riding my skateboard down a hill and took a spill, landing on my head. Upon reluctantly going to the hospital I learned I had a fractured skull and was bleeding in my brain. I had to be air lifted to a hospital on Oahu, one of the most terrifying experiences of my life. Not knowing what would happen to me and having tubes and electrodes plugged in all over my body did not feel pleasant. Luckily the bleeding stopped and I was out of the hospital in a few days but will be out of commission for a while. Initially I was told to not do any physical activity for months but I am optimistic it will only be a few weeks. I have been relentlessly focusing on recovering, eating mostly super foods and leafy greens.
I feel like I have learned a lot about the psychology of healing and the power of positive thoughts. The hospital is no place for healing, with crappy processed food, even wearing a gown made me feel like I was not well. I wanted to be out of there immediately. After leaving, I felt so much better returning to the fertile grounds of my home under a mango tree. To me mango trees symbolize abundance, life, and growth. Salty breezes flowing in with light filtered green through the branches have been just what I need.
I have been taking heavy doses of turmeric, noni juice, and spirulina which have helped me recover quickly. I have been viewing all of this as an opportunity to practice patience and self awareness. It’s easy to think of myself as patient and aware when things are going good. Times like this really test where I am at. So far I am happy with where things are at, I accept that I will not be running or surfing for a while and that is ok. There are many other outlets to channel my inspiration and motivation.
I have always believed that being balanced in Mind, Body, and Emotion lead to happiness and health and there are plenty of things I can do in each area. I have definitely appreciated all of the support from my family and friends by checking on me. I am down but not out and will be fully back in no time!
Monday, May 28, 2012
Saturday, May 5, 2012
(Hawaii Redwood Magic)
Spring winds have blown in a little piece of solitude that has been elusive the past several months, letting my mind swirl with the stars around the night sky. I have been trying to re define my own concept of normal; swimming and biking have been added to the mix along with steady running, surfing, and paddling.
“We must try to whole-heartedly embrace the whole of our experience, even when we judge it to be hideous. Over time, we may find that we are far more than we thought we were–we may touch our own pre-existing sovereignty, our capacity to see and receive others and the whole of life, before we became subject to the cruel rule of our habitual thoughts and fears. We begin to realize that this mindful awareness is not separate from our innate capacity for wisdom and compassion.”
I have been thinking about the process of running, swimming, and paddling, embracing the inner and outer experience of each. Each calls for absolute absorption in the act and true immersion in the experience and it is there where I feel the most fluid and sane. When I first moved to the island I heard of the Captain Cook challenge and finally decided to give it a try. I have always been cynical about triathlons but this one seemed like a lot of fun! I bought an old road bike and kept it SIMPLE. One big reason for my cynicism about triathlons is the amount and price of gear that seemingly takes the soul out of all three activities. All together the event included a 1 mile swim across Kealakekua Bay (One of my favorite spots on the island), a 2 mile trail run climbing 1,300ft, a 34 mile bike ride and a 4 mile run. I was the most nervous about the swim and I figured the bike would be easy and the running would be fun. I was surprised to find myself gliding through the water almost effortlessly and before I knew it I was on the other side of the bay excited to run!
Monday, April 9, 2012
Pure compassion, ideals of steel
You built a castle made of sand and
Looked out upon this distant land
Against the grain and with the wind
Running your fingers through swirling clouds
As you ran, painting the countryside with grins
The light of the universe in your eyes
As you disappeared into the night
True as they are, true a human being that has ever walked this earth